Need some help here.
You know your bible?
Is it okay to use like ammunition?
You know what I mean …
Like a box of shells:
Fire a verse
Reload with another
Keep them vermin in our sights
Keep reloading and firing until they
Whoop with righteous joy –
Plugged another of them varmits
I keep having ricochets whine past my ear
Keep having fragments draw blood – not for you –
Blood for them!
And it stings!
And I keep seeing others felled right in front of me
Dead. Dead to you. Dead to each other.
Sometimes it feels like a massacre.
If this is what you mean by spiritual “warfare” –
Mark me down as a pacifist – I have my white feather.
Cos I don’t want to get shot
Not “die for them” – not kill “for them”
Not anything for “them”.
These trigger happy “lock and load” more verses types –
Because they scare the crap out of me.
And it’s hard to love you. It’s hard to hear you. It’s hard to do anything. It’s always a heavy yoke when I am crapping myself.
Can you tell them God? To lay down their arms. Stop killing things – each other – me – You.
Please God? For me?