I never even realised

My daily face time with my lord.
And three brief ponderings on the way to today’s verses
Always the same three “themes” of thought.
A sort of “be still” way of “being still” on the way to the word.
Kind of routine.

Not today.

Today was “do not pass number one”
Do not have another thought
Today was “you and I stay right here”:

What is present to me is what has a hold on my becoming.
I reflect on the Presence of God always there in love,
amidst the many things that have a hold on me.
I pause and pray that I may let God
affect my becoming in this precise moment.

He grabbed that word “becoming”
Spun it around “hold”
Picked up “present” and tied the three together.
Then slapped this bouquet down in front of me with a theatrical flourish!

And that well loved programme from my youth tingled just out of reach. The one in which the caped crusader walked amongst ordinary folk. And the ordinary folk never recognised him. They preferred to see the cape. And the crusader. I am so glad He allows me to be Robin.


“I can only be with you
In the present

(DINNA DINNA DINNA DINNA … theme tune time!!)
Now repeat that.
Now repeat that.
Now repeat that.
Now repeat …

(BATMOBILE REVVING … excitement time!!)
Now ponder with me …
All these moments.
In the present.

(WHEEEEE!!!! … time!!)
They become your future.
(DONUTS … time!!)
And in that
You WILL see me in your past.

That is why I am with you always
(THANK YOU MY LORD … time!!)
Because of this one moment.
If you allow.”

And the bestest thing ever?
As that moment faded.
He is still with me.
In this new moment.
In this new new moment.
And this new new new …

And the high fives and chuckles continue!
All the time!
(if I allow)

“I am with you always.”
This one moment is my future and my past.
“I am with you always.”
And this morning I “get” this hackneyed and well worn phrase
“I am with you always.”
That I have said, thought and (thought) I understood for so long.
“I am with you always.”

I never even realised
That I hadn’t ever got it.
Until this morning
When I “got it”

And then he whispered …
I pause and pray that I may let God
affect my becoming in this precise moment.

(and He roared with laughter – again!!)

🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂


13 thoughts on “I never even realised

  1. Oh how the people of Israel wanted to see Jesus’ cape. They begged for miracles, for Him to “prove” Himself to them, to show His power. They couldn’t swallow His humanness or His hometown or His honesty. He was a hero, just not the kind they wanted or expected. I think many of today’s Christians want the cape, too. It’s sad, because they don’t see that His biggest miracle was on the cross, and the only thing He wore was a crown of humility.

    I’m grateful that He didn’t choose the cape.

    “I am with you always”… I keep seeing the word “always”. I watch as the letters part and form two words. God is with me “all ways”. Whether I’m upside down, inside out, in a storm or under a rainbow, He is with me. His is all. He is the Way. Always present in all ways.

    Thank you, Paul.


    • And now he wears batman gear!! 🙂 🙂

      And that All Ways is now a beautiful “All Way Always All Ways” – that second, this moment, and the next and the next – is my future and is my past – if I allow.

      The more I sink into this relationship, the less I see multitudes and crowds, the more I see something so intimate He can only be One. And yet One is for every one. I tend to go around in spinning circles and get dizzy when I think too much in that way! He does that a lot when I ponder.

      After running out of word-steam (I had a look to see how many remain before you reach that layby – there are a few), this morning he poured the “walking on water” supplement over me in 3d and full colour. A similar sense happened with the “prodigal son” parable through a book based entirely on that one parable. This time it feels like a slow burn rather than a batman moment. So still paused rather than pounding the keyboard.

      And what I value about your comments – they are not “gotta get through this and catch up” in any way. I am learning! we had a holiday and I did the “catch up” thing when we came back. I like your way better.


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