To see GSHJ ** “less darkly”


(** God Soft Hands Jesus)

Every comedian knows that great jokes are about great timing.

Hearing The Word in the word is always about great timing.

Allowing Him to speak is all about great listening.

Hearing Him speak, seeing Him move, feeling Him upon you is not all about one “anything”.

It comes through relationship.

He is relationship. It is always about love. Always.

Julia asked a question last night: “Hi, I seem to be going backwards in time or perhaps just catching up. I have been wondering what began happening two years ago which caused you to begin to see GSHJ “less darkly” and what caused you to empty yourself of what you “have been taught and teached and preached to think”. I glanced at what you wrote awhile ago and found myself thinking and wondering as the weeks went by. There is a story here I reckon. Can I coax you to share it? I am interested. Julia”
(Julia of: “He leads me beside a moorland stream” – https://reflectionsduringlent.wordpress.com/)

Now if she had asked: “And how did you know you loved your wife?” I would have asked my wife whether she minded me writing about something intimate. And only if she said “no – but please show me what you write before sending it to Julia” – would I have written a reply.

So Julia has asked: “And how did you know you loved our Lord?” and I find my first reaction to ask Him whether He minds me writing about something so intimate and precious. Because that’s how we do stuff together.

Last night I went to sleep with this on my mind. And this morning these were the verses He offered:

“Then Jesus went home; and the crowd came together again, so that they could not even eat. When his family heard it, they went out to restrain him, for people were saying, “He has gone out of his mind.” Mark 3:20-21

That is His way of saying: “no – but please show me what you write before sending it to Julia”

Great timing. Great joke. Great answer. I know that. He knows that. We know that.

He is relationship. It is always about love. Always.

So yes, He and me have a love story to share. And there is an intimacy He wishes me to share. There is a madness He wishes me to allow. There is a love story to be written. That He wants me to share.

So, Julia: maybe you are Him speaking to me. Maybe you are you speaking to Him. Maybe you are you speaking to me. It matters not. We are all connected. All of One.

So He and me will write our love story. And through our collaboration will come a story of perfect timing. Of intimacy. Of stumbling. Of doubts. Of love. Of madness.

And like any love story – this will not be “testimony” nor “witness” – nor anything churchy teachy or preachy. This is not to be hijacked by the “corporate church” – this story is His story. Our story.

A love story.

This story will simply be relationship. With some great jokes (to us). And some perfect timing (to us). Because it is always about love (to us).

Always.

Thank you Julia. As always I have no idea why or what or when or how.

And as always – more and more – the knowing matters not.

He is relationship. It is always about love.

Always.

(We will get back to you when words and madness come together)

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20 thoughts on “To see GSHJ ** “less darkly”

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  4. Oh Paul…I feel as if I am embarking on a journey of change, of hope, of connection, of knowing, of truth. As you and God navigate through the clean, the murky, the still, the raging seas of your relationship, I am a willing (and excited) passenger.

    God has given you a gift, my friend, of putting into words that which many of us can’t seem to grasp, that for which we strive, that which seems to have no words. You and He form them into images that pierce the heart and leave lasting imprints.

    Thank you so much for listening, for hearing, for loving, for sharing. This love story is one I won’t miss.

    Your dirt sister,
    Heather

    • Heather, every time you comment I do two things. The first is to breathe. Because every time you pen words, they take my breath away. Like an unexpected torrent of love – startling and beautiful and so connected.
      The second is to let them be absorbed. Because always they filter through at different speeds to different levels in different ways. You paint such glorious pictures with your words. They demand nothing and give everything. They glorify Him every time.
      You have a gift. Not mine. Not anybody else’s. You just “are” in Him and of Him. Always. Even when you are feeling cruddy you turn to Him. Always.
      I know why He decided to connect us through words: you empower.
      And I do not think you empower only me. You are perfect for so many others. Because you are real. Always.
      Thank you dirt sister.

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  8. Dear Paul,
    You wrote ” And like any love story-this will not be ‘testimony’ nor “witness’ nor anything churchy teachy or preachy. This is not to be hijacked by the ‘corporate church’-this story is His story. Our story.” Tell me what you mean by the ‘corporate church”. Are we part of it whether or not we want to be? Is Jesus part of it? If not, how can it be made a place where Jesus feels at home? And how can we the sheep find our shepherd?
    These are the first of my questions…
    Julia

    • Hiya Julia, just seen number two arrive as I got to number one.
      I have to say that your questions are like a musical score. They resonate and have harmony. They are beautiful and soaring and of love!
      Thank you. Please scoot as many as you have. Because something He seems to be encouraging in you are these symphonies of questions, and something He seems to be inviting of me is this.
      To lift each question and post a post. To add my thoughts – but to invite a conversation from others (including you and me) with so much more than anything I can say/write. To encourage others to add, to watch, to take, to give and to connect.
      You are connected. And you seem to be a connector. And that has great power. It has a lot of God in each word.
      As with your trigger for this sequence, I offer an invitation – you ask, I post – and we both see what is shared between all in this church of blogs?
      🙂

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