I have had a weekend of trying to figure out my spiritual jobspec again: checking the leading and guidance, discerning the service He has in mind. And I had it all figured out – maybe. But was then thrown something totally unexpected yesterday – and am now even more confused.

And this morning I was reminded of the many helpdesks every company seems to have nowadays. Because when a purchase stops working as I expect, then I hunt down the manual, and skim through looking for “how do I fix this”. And when I can’t? Then I call the helpdesk: “fix this please”.

This weekend I had been in a similar spiritual place. And had been calling the helpdesk  but He wasn’t answering.

This morning He gave me the Gospel of John, Chapter 6, verses: 22-29.  And then said:

”Dearest Paul, you wish to have help with your “jobspec”? You wish to know what it is you must perform in My name? You want to know (again) how you “serve Me”?

Would this translate as “what great works / what souls to save / which gifts to employ / how to please God / how to be “good” / how do I get it “right” – that old “What About Me” kind of stuff, Paul?

Well, dear Father, I think you misquote me a tad – I would not have used quite those words myself – and I had hoped You might be a little more sympathetic … you know – with You being” GSHJ” and all that … but now you put it that way … well … ummm ….

”Simply RTFM, Paul … R.T.F.M.”

I haven’t thought of those initials for years! And if you are unfamiliar with them, let me enlighten you. It is (so often) the silent cry of every helpdesk when we spill our frustration down their phone lines:

“Read The F****g Manual”

So often I miss the answer when I “skim the manual”. So often I want the “fix it” answer and miss the “this is how” instructions. Because when I am engrossed and focused on something not working – when I have invested so much of my time and energy trying to figure it all out – then I am not seeing or hearing at all. Not really.

And this morning when I “got it” – when “the jobspec” became simple again – then He whispered affectionately:

“Read – do not skim – do not hunt down the answer – do not take out your frustration on the manual – “Read the F*****g Manual” with Me always.”

My spiritual jobspec confusion? My answer – my “getting it” … ?

“Then they asked him,
“What must we do to do the works God requires?”
Jesus answered,
“The work of God is this:
to believe in the one he has sent.”

verses 28-29


Thank you Lord.


4 thoughts on “RTFM with GSHJ

  1. Paul, you outdid yourself on this one. By far to date this is the best post you have written that I have read, at the least for not only my enjoyment but for my instruction also. What a great topic, RTFM. I love it. You were really in the “zone” on this one my good friend.

    • Sammy, thank you. There are posts which come easily, and yet sit less comfortably. This was one. Not for the communion or the learning – nor even the words. But the sharing of “that word” which we must never utter in public – and never think in private either. And yet here He is happily repeating it to make the point – and happy to share that He is happily repeating it! Go figure!! 🙂

      Yet that always seems to reinforce our intimacy – my trust and relationship.

      (I had sat only with the discomfort yesterday, and – once again – your comment releases another look – another facet and reflection! Thank you!!)

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s