What does that mean to you? Do you even have one?
Right now those two words are really important to me. A lifeline. I yell “Sock Drawer” very loudly right now. My lifeline:
A battered ribcage from a fall. Ten days ago. A bone that is melding back to one. Battered muscles still doing what muscles do. The stab of pain from a random movement, a sneeze, a cough – ache to agony in a millisecond. “Sock Drawer!”
RELAX, PAUL! NOW! RIGHT NOW, PAUL: RELAX!
(I could tell you why “sock drawer” – but the logic is illogical!)
We all do it I think. Talk to ourselves.
”After Jesus had spoken these words, he looked up to heaven and said, ‘Father, the hour has come; glorify your Son so that the Son may glorify you, since you have given him authority over all people, to give eternal life to all whom you have given him. And this is eternal life, that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom you have sent. I glorified you on earth by finishing the work that you gave me to do. So now, Father, glorify me in your own presence with the glory that I had in your presence before the world existed. John 17:1-5
For many years – when I read of Jesus talking to God – I have been distracted by “God talking to God – what’s that about?” Why did Jesus spend so much time praying to God when He is “God”? Then the “Trinity” stuff kicks in and I muse: three in one and one in three – what’s that all about? I have been taught it works, it is okay, it is right. I have my own pictures to explain it to me. Pictures of water ice steam. That kind of thing. I have to believe – because we all say it is so. Head knowledge – yes. But complete acceptance in every fibre – no.
Until “sock drawer”:
Sock drawer!!!!!!!!!!!!! Come on Paul, you know relaxing works. Sock drawer sock drawer sock drawer!!!!!!!! Ignore the pain – hold that thought: relax. Feel the edge – not so jagged? Feel the dagger not digging? Coming down again – coming down again – feel it smoothing again. Walk it off, Paul, walk it off. Back to groans, back to ouch, back to bearable. The ache is coming, feel it? Keep relaxing, Paul. Just a little more – keep walking – a few more seconds …
Paul talking to Paul?
I don’t care. It just “is”. And it works. So analyse that all you want. It works for me without any understanding. Pierces the pain of that moment and triggers the knowledge that relaxing if the fastest way to ache again. Paul talking to Paul.
God talking to God?
These past ten days my head and heart are as one. “Sock drawer” has given me complete acceptance. God just “is” three in one and one in three. I no longer need “understanding”. I have moved past “understanding” to “being”.
God talking to God?
My final word on the matter is “sock drawer”
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