And He gave Himself to me. Completely.

“Here’s some homework: Reflect and pray on these verses, asking Him to reveal them in their fullness to you. I think you’ll find this to be a fascinating exercise in spiritual practice.”

I am not a fan of homework. I am not a fan of spiritual exercise. I am not a fan of all that kind of God stuff.

(and like a young baby disturbed by a smidgeon of trapped wind, I sense Him adjusting me on His shoulder and gently rubbing my back as I type that: “Shhhhh … shhhh … it’s okay …”  (that’s much better, Lord, thank you) )

Anyhow, as I was saying – I am not a fan. But the Lord’s Prayer catches my attention. Because – to borrow a phrase from Little Monk – it’s like seeing a rose from different directions – looking at (and into) each individual petal and stamen – there are always new wonders to behold.

Don Merritt … homework … “This, then, is how you should pray” … I groaned and was a little curious (but mostly groaned).

:-/ :-/ :-/ :-/ :-/

And this morning, instead of reaching for the lectionary verses, I reached deep inside for Him and me – and tried letting Him “be enough” – for me!

“This, then, is how you should pray:

Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,

We are named, we belong. We belong to more than the family we have around us. We belong to a family from before and until after. A family not of rulers and pomp and majesty. But a family of caretakers. Caretakers of Love. Caretakers of Unconditional Love. Wow!

your kingdom come,
your will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.

Just like the sea and tides, I come today and stand in the waves. Bathing again in the essence of Our realm. A realm of Our Love. A realm of Love within me – of me – this very second. A force of great good. A force of great love. A force unstoppable – right now – within me this very second. And I stand here in the washing, the cleansing, the restoring, the strengthening.

Give us today our daily bread.
And forgive us our debts,
as we also have forgiven our debtors.

Let me be enough this day. Let me be enough for You this day. Let me be enough for those You bring to my path, my step, my resting. Let me be enough – for I know You are enough in me. Let me be as one in One with each one in You. Let ME be enough this day.

And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from the evil one.

You remind me that Darkness dances around us. I acknowledge this dance is within and without. I gird my loins this day – step out again this day. I charge myself to be watchful. To be aware. To be connected to You as I walk. I remind myself to allow You – to disallow Darkness – to disallow the siren call – the invitation to allow Darkness within. And I thank You for caring for me even in this – this invisible dance of Darkness. Our Love is a connection of safety, of one-ness, of Us complete.

For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

And I marvel at the relationship of You and Jesus and Spirit. A relationship of which I am part. A relationship I can tip in so many directions when I forget I am – when I dance with Darkness – when I invite Darkness – when I desire the fruit of Darkness. And I marvel at Your completeness – how completely You desire me in all that I am – in all that I am not – in all that I could be – in all that I won’t be – in all that I am.

And most of all I marvel that you desire this completeness in every single creation living and yet to live. Every single creation I label and dismiss. Every single creation I shuffle towards or away. I marvel as I stand in these waves.

And am invigorated again and again.

🙂   🙂   🙂   🙂

I have no idea if this a “spiritual exercise”, nor if this is “homework”. All I know is that I thought I was slowly pondering petals of a rose. And He gave Himself to me.


Thank you Lord.  Thank you Don.  Thank you each.


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