Christmas Countdown – to mouths-agape-not-love


Now here is why you should …

Someone else’s reason why I should change me. Someone else’s logic why I should change the me I already am.  Almost always it is never enough for me.  For me I need to connect heart and mind.  If I change me I want more than logic.

And where does fear belong in this creation of change?

Why should I change my gods if “the should” is original sin – is fear?  Fear of things that go bump in the night … of being burned in hell … being cast out … totally alone … no way of changing anything ever again.  The debt I am paying for someone else.  The debt we are all paying for someone else.  Even these fragile and tiny innocents we call babies – these personal creations of primal succession of mingling bodily stuff.

I am not changing because of “original sin” – I am changing because I am finding love that is infinite. I am changing because I am finding that Love really does Change Everything (even when nothing seems to change at all).

Two babies. Yesterday John.  Today Jesus  – Luke 1:26-38

Mrs Paul had a baby. I had a part to play.  Not once but four times.  Each time I remember our excitement.  Our excitement of what was to come.  Of how we would change – of how everything would change – for ever!  Is there original sin in that?

We had plenty of human error, absence of knowledge, of new skills we never knew were needed, of knowing “how to” in advance of every second of every new thing and every new circumstance and every new reaction … desire … response … urge … not just of us parents – but of this new and growing life.  There was plenty of “human error” and pain for all concerned along the way.

But is that because of “original sin”?  Or because new life is unknowing.  Just as described in Genesis.  Do this and do that.  Don’t eat this, do eat that.  Look after this, watch out for that.  Isn’t that what every parents does?  And yet doesn’t every parent want more … so much more … ?

Because just how will this growing seed grow if not with infinite space and choice?  How many parents really desire our children to be forever constrained?  Is that really “love without condition”?  Isn’t love (with our without condition) always given freely?  And do we really hear God speak thus ..

“You will love me for ever and ever.  You will not know any alternative.  You will not be allowed to know any alternative.   You will remain here with me for evermore.  Take the prisoner down.”

Is that really what God means by love?

I keep reading the Greek versions of love.  There is this kind of love, that kind of love and then there is THIS kind of love – AGAPE love!  And we add conditions.  We create different kinds of love.  Bodily fluids and mingling of?  That is “this” kind of (dirty) love.  Band of Brothers?  That is “this” kind of harmless love (so long as  …).  But “mouths agape love” … ?  Sorry.  You aren’t capable of that.  Original sin you see.  You need God to come and get you over that.  But because of original sin, you will still splutter and falter.  So mouths-agape-not-love is all we can do really.  We yearn agape love.  Until we die.  Then we can.

Hello …

Mrs Paul had a baby. I had a part to play.  Not once but four times.  Each time I remember our excitement.  Our excitement of what was to come.  Of how we would change – of how everything would change – for ever!  Is there original sin in that?

I wonder –

Do we already live in a garden of unconditional love?

Because the God Soft Hands Jesus who walks with me as I walk with him has never threatened me with original sin.  Just as he has never rewarded me for being good.  But he has always promised to love me without condition. And he has always shown me love without condition.

And I have learned.

I am learning that under all circumstances I can be love without condition myself.  I am learning there is only love.  I am learning I can make my own sacred ground no matter the choices of others.  I am now seeing seeds of unconditional love everywhere.  Some sprouting.  Some withering.  Some nurtured.  Some not.  Babies.  New life.  Innocents.

Who WE insist are tainted.

Maybe THAT is the “sin” these two babies came to free us from …

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