Who is my relationship with? +1

What is a follower/believer?

I was taught that I must seek the back-door, I must follow the small winding (and hidden) path.  I was taught that – having been saved – I was okay (unlike those who were not).  I was taught that to find this small door to heaven – to follow this winding tiny path to God – the reality was to travel a road as big as a motorway – because all those who taught the bible all taught the same stuff:

The “back-door” is a huge neon-lit gothic-fantasy style entrance – complete with full-on sound effects – and visible over decades and millenia of church teaching.  And as for the “small and winding path” … ?  It is the straightest widest strait-jacket signposted traffic signposted well-lit no roundabout or detours allowed motorway to heaven!  One that is stuffed full of believers all sticking together – no overtaking allowed.

(all because the bible says so)

I was taught that to be a follower meant having no more than “two-degree eyesight”.  That a follower looks straight ahead … follows the emanating glow from this “huge neon-lit gothic-fantasy style entrance”.  I was taught that to leave the “straightest widest strait-jacket signposted” road was the (slippery) slide all the way to hell!

(all because the bible says so)

Yet the bible I read has a “360 degree” God and Jesus at its heart.  A God and Jesus who did not “follow” anything straight or well lit.   But who did stop and heal, tarry and converse, give and respond, meet all wherever and whenever each was.  “Following”  was (and is) 360 degrees always.

So I want become a “360 degree” follower.  Not because the bible says so.  But because I want to be a 360 degree follower without need of neon-lit signs, or signposted traffic, or the need to follow the herd, or the need to conform to “tradition”, and without the need to hand control to “the church” – rather than “God” (all these man-made mechanisms purport to serve).  And because with 360 degrees I have no need to block my journey with anything I encounter because the (taught) bible says I must.

There were two (at this point) wonderfully honest comments under yesterday’s post:

Lilka: “Sometimes the Father, sometimes the Son and sometimes the Spirit but that collection of books no longer causes me guilt when I don’t read it. I DO feel guilty when I don’t go out and sit alone with God to listen or speak with no particular agenda. Or, if I don’t do something I really feel God prodding me to do.”

vw: “I heard in my spirit, “I am carrying you now”. Gave me great comfort, because I am accustomed to pushing after Him. The time comes when He truly carries us when we can’t.”

Thank you both – and please pop across to read the whole comments and responses.  

So I think we need to stop doing as we are taught.  I think we need to stop pushing, stop feeling guilty, stop making points, stop being “two degree followers”.  Because I love how real “360 degree” fellowship/connection finds both commonality AND diversity (but NEVER division).

(all because the bible says so)

I am not a 360 degree follower because the bible says so.  I am becoming one by not pushing, not following the rules, and not chasing this (fictional) “heavenly gate”.   I am becoming one by “allowing the bible” rather than “doing the bible”.  And yet (oddly to my mind) … following the “small winding path”, enjoying the smell of flowers, loving the buzz of a bee, relishing the conversation of a “non-believer”, being in the company of those who are not “in the club” … all seems to mean I am not in the club either.  Means that I am on the wrong road.  That I have lost sight of this heavenly gate.  All “because the (taught) bible says so” …


Doesn’t that seem a little odd to you as well?



9 thoughts on “Who is my relationship with? +1

  1. I have ceased to believe what they taught me the Bible said, reading it properly the Word did not intend for us to be anything but as we are. The relationship we build with the one who loves us, going 360 with Him, turning aside to smell the roses, to look at the Marvels He has made, to live.
    If we believe what they have taught us the bible is a dichotic Library of do or don’t, yes or no, saved or unsaved. Remember the greys, the wonderful grey’s which allow us to be all at once and nothing at all. I believe, no, I know Jesus who accepts me as I am, on my journey with him and at the same time to him. Belief or even walking with Jesus holds no guarantee of salvation whether the road is wide or narrow what is within our hearts might. We are not saved until we arrive, climb in through the windows of Heaven if the narrow and wide ways are congested.
    Unless we love Jesus and Our Abba and the little wispy wind that blows where she will we will not want to be in the heavenlies at all. So you see it is up to us to become all that Abba desires we become or not as the case may be. We may not make it all the way, but then God, who knows all things knows our limitations and aids us in our quest to find what manner of people we are.

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    • “ … the wonderful greys … “

      Ah, but are you talking about the good (wonderful) greys or the bad (evil) greys? For that is the problem with greys – they are a dilution of both black and white. And we are taught not to let black in – the bible says so (or it should).

      You spark a thought: walking in faith – surely walking amongst the wonderful greys has no fear. Whereas walking not in faith requires my ability to differentiate between what is visible and what I deduce. Therefore I need to seek white and avoid black – and as for grey … I will fear grey.

      Does that spark anything in you? 🙂🙂🙂

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      • As you remember my Grey’s revealed the sliding scale of difference between what is good, white and the bad black. In the context that nothing is wholly good, nor wholly bad.
        Those greys are for us a walk towards purity. Walk in the light not in the dark and each addition of white draws us towards the light. We walk in Faith, though not alone. Yes in this context binary, dichotomy keeps us safe when we walk faithlessly alone.
        It sparks my fear when from time to time I lose my Faith, or my mind is dis eased. I have learned the mantra All will be well remember? Eventually, hold on, love the fear because the light will be O so bright when you arrive.


        • “It sparks my fear when from time to time I lose my Faith, or my mind is dis eased.”

          I range and roam
          Sometimes wide and far
          Othertimes near my home
          Yet home is home
          wherever I roam.

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          • Loverly 🙂
            I have struggled with Epilepsy and Bipolar Affective Disorder since 17, I fought it, refused to take my medication – because “it” could not exist in me!

            As I grew in Faith and walked more in God i realized that the way to peace lay in accepting and loving these things and knowing that wherever someone else experienced them, I had the opportunity to dissolve the fear – if they learned to accept the solvent of love. Dilutes Fear.

            For one or two years now I have been losing my short term Memory and forgetting other things, a side effect of the Anti Epileptic Drugs. I might take my tablets and forget, so mustn’t take them in case I have already and will soon find out if I haven’t . Life is a ball.

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