Br. Ass


Demons of Manic Depression

St. Franci’s of Assisi referred to his body as Br. Ass, treating it severely, subjecting it to all manner of indignity, almost as though it were other than him self. He understood it, that it was the body which committed the sins of the heart, was under his control – “The enemy your body”
16“Are you still so dull?” Jesus asked them. 17“Don’t you see that whatever enters the mouth goes into the stomach and then out of the body? 18But the things that come out of a person’s mouth come from the heart, and these defile them. 19For out of the heart come evil thoughts—murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false testimony, slander. 20These are what defile a person; but eating with unwashed hands does not defile them. MATTHEW 15:16 N.I.V.

The Enemy your Mind!

I happen,just now to be under the influence of my Bipolar Affective Disorder with the persecution and anxiety with which it inflicts me. My closest friends, those I look up to and admire, my mind, my heart fears what they will do to me. It is my own mind that torturers me, providing, feeding the condition. Imagining each slight, each thrust that destroys relationships, my mind imagins all manner of fear. Shameful thoughts, nurturing and feeding the pain.

Does my mind sin against my heart in that it increases the intention of commision?

We, I do understand that the ancients believed the heart to be the seat of wisdom which is why Jesus phrases his admonition as he did.

My heart is hurting as though a great weight sits upon it, my stomach is cramping because I am in physical pain because of the inclinations of my heart, the fear I will unleash all the Monsters of the ID upon the innocent.

Bizarre

That I should love the torture!

Yet the pain of Br. Ass distracts my mind and might still my heart.?

Ministry

Even amid the chaos I continued to, continue with my ministry to others with the whirlwind at my back.

For now my words are stilled while I slay my daemons.

Andrew

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