When I am isn’t enough.


I thoroughly understand his meaning, yet need to say that sometimes just being me does not surfice because sometimes in my bipolar mind I have no reference for who ‘I am’, I attempt to teach myself that this, too is Being.

Being in a Cloud of unknowing is also essence, being, it is a different me, yet still I am, I am.

And this creeps into holy unspeakable realms. Realms where bushes burn and I must put off my shoes…..for am I becoming God when I utter I am?

During our journey from someone to me we go beyond to dwell in the great IAM. YHWH the unspoken One.

I have no need to speak anymore,

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About Andrew Blair

Living in Maroubra Australia. Carer for my wife Jessica. Simple web designer and Administrator; photographer, artist and theologian. (Ordained by a Celtic bishop), we now attend the Uniting Church Additionally Since the age of 17 I live with uncontrollable Epilepsy and Bipolar Affective Disorder with some Psychotic episodes, for the past 4 years, at least I have been bipolar depressed with no real excitement, periodic bouts of paranoia and other yuck.

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