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I keep seeing this …

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“The world is a mess but I am just one person so what can I do – who should I support – what should I believe?  How do I find the answers?  Who has the answer?”

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and this …

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“The answer is you!  You just have to find yourself – the inner you – the real you!  You WILL move mountains when you connect with who you can be!”

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Fake news.  Mis-speaking.  Algorithms.  Artificial Intelligence.  Bots (whatever they are).  Social media.  Instant news.  The public domain (is there a “private domain”?).  Secular or spiritual.   Faith or fantasy.   Belief or disbelief.

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My dad helped in so many ways.

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He told me that my grandfather’s life had encompassed man’s journey from the very first manned-flight to the very first manned-moon landing.  Imagine living through that change!

Imagine living through all of that without the power of the internet and instant news.  Imagine “fake news” as “news” was spread by word of mouth.  Imagine the absence of “knowledge” as those out of the loop never even knew!  Imagine the superstition of naysayers.  The optimism and yaysayers.  Imagine the polarity of opinion and the dragging-in of God … man “flying” was emulating God and therefore sinful – not scriptural – not biblical.  And the secular world poo-pooing this religious “superstition” – there is no God there is only Man and Man is capable of anything – look at us we are flying!

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Mum and Dad used to give “dinner parties”.  A bunch of oldies sitting around our dinner table eating food much better than we ever had, with a table laid much more ornately than we ever had, and with us consigned to silence and invisibility.  And still with silence and invisibility we had to clear it all away (no dishwashers) when the party moved to the sitting room.  Our reward?  We got to finish their leftovers.

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My life is “encompassing” no-internet to internet to the “internet of things”.  My life may end (or continue) by plugging myself into “artificial intelligence” – with my digitally enabled limbs to replace my failed natural ones.  Look at me – I am living forever!!

I am living through all of that with the power of the internet and instant news.  With  “fake news” as “news” spread instantly.  With the absence of being out of any loop at all.  I see the superstition of naysayers.  The optimism and yaysayers.  I see the polarity of opinion and the dragging-in of God … man “living forever” IS emulating God and therefore sinful, etc.  And the secular world IS poo-pooing this religious “superstition” – there is no God there is only Man, etc!

The world is not a mess.

It is the same world we have always taken from.  It’s just we do it better and faster nowadays.  And we are not supermen or superwomen (or super “gender neutral” or “fluid” – or whatever the next label is).  Because I can only and ever be me.

I am.

I am on a journey called life.

A journey I can enjoy and live to the full.  Or treat as a no-contact sport – sit in the stands and munch on my big carton of (low fat high chemicals) popcorn and drink my supersize (low sugar high chemicals) fizzy drink – always dreaming about being on the field of play but knowing I never will.

I get to live once.

So I have had it with “others” telling me how to live … How to believe in God … How not to believe in God … How to love … Who to love … Who to hate … Who not to hate … How to work … How to eat … How to stay fit … How to be who I should be if only …

I do what THEY tell me … Avoid making THEIR mistakes … Don’t let THEIR bad things be my bad things … Be like THEM and/or THEM (as well) and/or THEM  (instead of the first THEM) and/or THEM over there (in the “niche” corner) … Be successful in MY life as defined by THEIR life!

Which is stealing MY life from ME (in anyone’s language).

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My journey and my choice … ?

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I am me.

I am.

What more can I be.

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And why is that never enough for

them

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